A Slow Descent

Last night we were lazing about in my room, as the bunch of us tend to do.. And someone came up with the idea of watching Alice In Wonderland.. Of all the movies I have in my house, we decided to watch that..

Well, it was rather interesting watching it now.. In the state of mind that I'm in, the current "life knowledge" I have, and the things I am aware of..

Watching that movie as a kid, you don't tend to pick up on things, as someone who may be older than you may be able to pick up on..

As a younger child, you aren't aware of what the characters in the movie may have been based on, what it is they are taking, what they are doing, what they are implying and all sorts of things like that..

The hashish smoking caterpillar, the mushrooms, the sadistic queen obsessed with removing characters heads, the caffeine addicted or high on speed Mad Hatter and his long eared buddy, murderous walrus and other assorted things and statements throughout the movie..

As a naive young child, you are just mesmerized by everything, totally unaware of particular or actual reasonings or occurances throughout the movie.. You just see it all as magical, fun, funny or strange, but are never drawn to think about why, or what it is that is causing this kind of behavior or things within the movie..

As an older person now, re-watching what I once thought was just wacky and strange, I have now been drawn to think about it more.. Instead of being just purely entertained by the bizarre and random, I now think about why or what it is they are doing.. Why she is dreaming what she is dreaming, what is causing the characters to behave like they are, and where I can get some of that "Mushroom & Crazy Tea"..

A while ago I was told that Alice In Wonderland was written by somebody on LSD/Acid/Ice or some form of mind altering substance.. Well, Hey, I can totally see that.. The kinds of transformations, characters and events are just so bizarre, so random, so strange, that somebody had to be on something to come up with something so twisted..

I searched the web for this, and came across this website (Drug Answer = First One).. Whether it is true or not, I do not know, nor do I really care THAT much to properly clarify this.. So, here, read it yourself and make you're own decision.. Be that answer biased or fact, I honestly don't care..

Alice In Wonderland FAQ


Oh, and I definitely want what that cat was on.. haha..

I've been off everything for the last month and a half or so.. And it's been great, found I can have heaps of fun mad sober! Alcohol doesn't seem to agree with me, so I just don't use it.. And just have lots of Tommy sober fun.. Doing whatever, and just having fun..

Sure, I can't say or do things that I normally would if I was off chops or drunk, but I can work my way into it! haha.. Normally I'd straight up do whatever someone dared or wanted me to, talk to whoever or whatever.. But, sober, as you would know, things aren't always as easy to say or do..

I don't regret ever doing drugs, I don't regret anything I've done (except one thing, which I won't mention, but the one person it concerns knows this and forgives, but I don't forget it..).. I don't regret it at all, it was a phase, it was fun, and now I'm out of it before I got myself too deep or too caught up in it and really sent things off track..

My parents knew from day one, I told them about it, I told them everything about it.. They never liked it, but weren't going to preach or whatever.. I didn't do it too often, but I did it.. Some friends hated it, it drove some away from me and others.. It was my choice to do this, it was their choice to step away.. We'd never see eye to eye with it, fair enough, can't expect everyone to share the same opinion or views on everything as you do..

They were fun, they were amazing, I have to admit.. But I don't recommend anyone to start it.. Not at all.. But, everyone has to realise that you can't preach and keep others away from it, it is so extremely common.. They will always be around it.. If someone you know is doing it, and you don't want them to.. Talk to them about it, discuss it, share your views, don't resort to preaching and arguements, don't resort to guilt trips.. Just be aware..

I never realised the frequency and commonplace that drugs are, until I entered that world.. So many people have and do do it.. And it is so easy to get your hands on them too..

Anyway, that phase is over for me.. It has been a while.. I did them at the last rave (Transmission - Aloha).. Before that was about a month, or over a month.. and before that a few weeks.. And now, no more.. If I am going to ever do them again, it will be at Daft Punk in December.. But even then, I don't think I will.. I just don't want to anymore.. I haven't even thought about doing them lately.. I do remember the feeling and state of mind it gives you, but, no more for me..

And I stand by that, and are happy about that decision.