On The Edge Of The Dark

Last night I had a pretty whacked out and messed up dream.. I don't really get it, I don't know if there is some kind of underlying reasoning or message or anything.. be it for me or for others.. But I don't know if I did die, or if I nearly died and crawled out into the second part of my dream..

But it impacted hard, I woke up this morning with the worst feeling (emotionally) inside of me, like something really bad just happened or something.. The feeling soon left me moments later.. But man, did it have me in a bit of a panic mode this morning..

Basically, all I can remember of my dream is this:


It started out with me and 3 friends (2 guys, 1 girl) sitting around in my room.. We were sitting there talking.. One had a bright red hat on with some logo, The other was holding a pair of scissors and something else, and the other had a little gold jewelery box with a heart shaped lock on it.. I forget what it was we were talking about, I just remember it making me feel saddened and kind of concerned..

Then the girl looks to me, and says "Well, you haven't ever done anything for me.." I remember that hurting, and one of the boys holding her hand and agreeing.. That made me stand up and say something along the lines of "After this whole time of knowing you.. something something something.. how could you value my friendship so low.." And leaving the room in a hurry.. I dont remember where I headed, But when I left my room it wasn't my house..

The made with the red hat stood up.. And I don't know what happened between then..

Then I remember driving really really fast with another mate in a green car chasing up behind me.. I don't remember if it was this particular car of one of my friends or not, I just remember bright Green. My car seemed alot quicker than usual.. We both had near misses through red lights and other cars.. Then the green car became Maroon and was following me.. Then it became a different bright red car.. and it disappeared..

Then all of a sudden.. It seemed like I was watching a movie.. I could see me, I could see my car, There were no other cars around.. I went through a red light and this big car hit me from the left.. I remember seeing the face of this person.. I remember knowing this person.. I remember recognizing that car.. I remember having lots of realisations about my life all in one fast pace.. I was happy, I was sad, I was confused.. Lots of things made sense.. I missed people.. I cried.. SO much was happening in one go.. All the while as everything I could see was in a slow slow motion.. I remember the detail of the car crumpling.. The headlights getting closer and closer to me as the car crumpled towards me..

My car was sent spinning.. and spinning.. Then I woke up for a second..

When I fell back asleep, I remember climbing out of something.. I don't think it was a car, I don't remember what it was.. I just remember being on the edge of this sand cliff.. That I remember was from another dream..

I can't remember what happened from there till just before I woke up.. All I remember was the similar things from a dream I had long ago.. Which involved channels of water going down beside me, and me being dragged with one of them to the edge of a cliff, and 2 friends reaching out and pulling me from it to safety..

Just this time they were bigger channels, pulling faster, and 3 friends.. 3 different friends..


This dream I had long ago went something like this, I remember talking to Alyce about it after I had it.. we discussed it, and reckon it had alot of meaning or message behind it.. I had it blogged at one stage aswell..

I was walking along a beach, small sand/stone ledge to my left, water to my right, and channels of water running off the ledge along the sand to the beach.. I had a group of about 5 or 6 people with me.. A couple run off to the water, a couple are with me, and others are elsewhere..

I climb up this ledge.. and sit and watch.. As I am sitting there it is getting higher and higher.. and everyone is gone.. I'm at the top of this; what is now a cliff.. and I can't get down without falling.. So I start walking..

Water starts gushing down, knocking me over and making me head towards the cliff edge.. pulling me fast and rapidly.. I'm clinging to things trying to hold on.. Then 2 of my friends appear.. They reach out, Grab me, and pull me to safety between 2 of the channels.. I am now safe.. and there are 3 people there.. 2 of which pulled me to safety.. They ask how I am.. and that is all I remember..